a lyric poem by Qainat
Kenopsia: n. the eerie, forlorn atmosphere of a place that’s usually bustling with people but is now abandoned and quiet
Opia: n. the ambiguous intensity of looking someone in the eye, which can feel simultaneously invasive and vulnerable
How much can you see?
When you look into my eyes,
It’s as if there’s no concept of privacy.
How many of my barriers do you tear down?
What mysteries do you unravel?
Do any make you frown?
What do you feel
As you look into my past, present, and future?
Is that all you need?
Are you not yet satisfied?
Aren’t you still curious
How one person can live two lives?
All that’s left is the now empty mind
Of what once was bustling and alive.
I am afraid you have wasted your time.
Is this not what you expected?
Are you looking into the corners with a feeling of dread,
Waiting for something in unfamiliar nothing to pop up,
And now more scared when it never does?
With one little look, all noise becomes one buzz.
I am vulnerable.
Discovery of an unknown familiar place
Came with regret so miserable.
Qainat is a junior.